Friday, October 16, 2015


Long shirt - Singapore | Socks - Lowrys Farm | Shoes - Zalora | Bag - CELINE
I am bearing the world on my shoulder. I have always think that this world is cruel and unfair. People got bullied, abused, and mistreated. I got to see how people abused and bullied the weaker ones, not to mention that I have experienced it also during my school days. Because of the bullying and mistreating stuffs, I don't trust people now. I tend to move back when someone approaches me or just keep quiet as I'm scared to get hurt again. People might say I'm arrogant by doing this, but really its just the way I live now, the way I protect myself is by closing my shell and not letting anyone in. This world is becoming more and more cruel each day. I have always been a weak person. Yeah, mentally and physically. I suck at sports and I cry a lot like a crybaby. I can never see or walk pass a disabled person or poor people on the street without feeling sad or wanting to cry. It is like my heart is throbbing so hard and its being slashed. You might think nor say that I'm overreacting, but if you know me really well you will know how badly I want to help this people. If I have coins or small money, I will just give when passing through them. Sometimes, I didn't give them simply because I'm rushing, thus not able to take money from my wallet. I will just say sorry inside my heart while passing through them. When this happened, my heart aches so badly. It's like I have done something wrong. These simple little things make me realized how grateful I am to have my life the way it is now and not to ask more as there are other people that have lesser than me. At night before I sleep, I pray to God that He will bless every one that I love and to make this world a better place. A better planet. By better planet means no more cutting down trees please! I am a tree hugger kind of person. Nature must be conserve, and I hate those people who cuts down trees just for fun or merely unimportant purposes. Its like I can see and hear the animals crying when they cut down the trees. The trees are their home, their habitat, their environment. If you cut down the trees, where do you think they will live? On the street? No. They will die. Or they will just go to the city area and try to find food to keep them alive. And what people do when they found animals roaming around the street? They will probably shoot them when its human fault that they came to the city area. If people didn't cut and burn their home, they won't even bother us. My head is full of these kind of stuffs. about the world. the people. the planet. Basically, everything.

As time flows, I become more scared of reality. Yes now I'm in college and my mind is currently on the edge of whether I have chose the right path or not. Most of my friends went to different paths and they already started working. Yes my dear, they have started making their own money. Whilst I'm here stuck in college and projects and deadlines. I keep on thinking when will I be able to have a job or start to work and earn money? Or at least have a good stabilized job that can sustain me so I don't have to make my parents worried about my future. Talking about future gives me thrills, fears, and sweats, like seriously, no one knows what will happen in the future. The more I keep thinking about it the more I started to become sad, down and depressed. The questions started with "What if" begins to pop in my head. What a scary question that makes you question yourself more. These questions are endless and have no answers just like love. Everyone wanted to believe that endless love was possible. I believed in it once too, back when I was thirteen. But I knew that love was messy, just like life. It took turns that people couldn't foresee or even understand, leaving a long trail of regret in its wake. And almost always, those regrets led to the kinds of what if questions that could never be answered. It will just make you more stressed out and usually, if I reached until this point, I will try to distract my mind by doing other stuffs like watching tv or playing laptop. Well, what if you stopped worrying? The world will look much better and you will feel much better by stop worrying about what-ifs. Those kids on the street would kill to have your life right now, everyone is struggling with their life they all have their own problems that is hard and difficult for them too. But they still try to be happy every single day n try to reach their goal. Be more positive. Life is beautiful. You should be grateful with everything you have. You don't know what others have to do just to get a better life. If you feel like you have lost your way, pray and God will show you the right way. He is always watching all of us and I believe he has already planned everything. And I trust him fully. When you are feeling down or depressed, remember this: God will not fail you. Be happy. Be yourself. If others don't like it, then let them be. Happiness is a choice. Life isn't about pleasing everybody. No matter how good or bad you have it, wake up each day thankful for your life. Someone somewhere else is desperately fighting for theirs.

Wednesday, October 7, 2015


Hello hello everyone! ☆*:.。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆ It has been around 2 weeks since AFAID2015. I miss it already! Missing all the maids and butlers as well as the staffs that took care of us. While the memory is still fresh in my mind I shall make a post about AFA CAFE 2015 *yeay*( ´ ▽ ` )ノ. Okay so, most of you may have already know that I joined MMK or AFACAFE[MMK+AR]. Don't know what is AFA? Click here to know more :D. At first I thought there will be no more AFA CAFE but suddenly *ding dong* our manager asked who's available and able to join AFA CAFE.
In AFA, there's a cafe called AFA CAFE where moe maids and handsome butlers will serve you with delicious food and drinks! AFA CAFE is the combination of Atelier Royale and Moe Moe Kyun, where AR is for the butlers and MMK is for the maids. This year, AFAID2015 was held at Jakarta International Expo from 25-27 September 2015. If you don't know what's MMK you can go to their page here and don't forget to like! ;) Anyway, here is my picture as Kathy.
(My face look so tanned in here I don't know why T-T, hopefully next time they will pick other picture instead of using this one lol(T∇T))
As usual, I will be spamming pictures during AFA *teehee ヽ(*≧ω≦)ノ

24 September 2015
I reached the hotel early and met Momo! We sat and talked at the lobby while waiting for the other members to come. Afterwards, the meidos went to Momo & Yume's room to chill and did a livestream via #17 app. I made 17 app here's my username in case you're wondering: cathysie.

25 September 2015
With Momo, who couldn't join us on the first day as she is one of the guest cosplayer *-*
With Mei, one of the new meido in AFA CAFE~ she looks like she is angry/unfriendly, but inside she is a really nice person to talk to. I bet those who talked to her during AFA would agree to this. lol.
With Riiya~ another new meido in AFACAFE! I knew her way before I joined AFA, in fact I went to AFA13 with her. She is really small and skinny *envy* (o;TωT)o lol. Many people said we lookalike because of our hair color during AFA but it's different ヽ(;▽;)ノ, mine is the failed teal color, while hers is blue pastelly color~(☆^O^☆)
With Yuu! If you have read my post about AFA CAFE 2014 you will know that she was my roommate last year, she is really pretty like seriously (⊙△⊙) I envy her natural beauty. She didn't look different at all from last year still the bijin of AFACAFE.(/•ิ_•ิ)/
With Yume, she is so funny and hilarious in person, not to mention pretty too (*~▽~) she is my twinnie in AFA as our costumes are the same XD. I really like her purple ombre hair it looks so cool *-* really match with her cosplay as Reyna lol.
With Mayu~ she is so comical like Yume, never fails to make me laugh. Did you know that she is Comi's sister? They got the tall genes, I wish i'm as tall as them ;-;. Did you know that she has the same interest like me? Yes, we both love watching crime series!
With Mixi, one of the new butlers! He is really cute and handsome, not to mention so energetic! :D
With another new butler, Kei! He is so tall and charismatic I bet every ojou-sama likes him~ He has this bodyguard vibe like he will protect all ojou-sama lol. He also likes to sing like Nao so they both are like the singers in AFACAFE
With Nao, the puppy eyes butler. People say he has those puppy eyes and yes he does. As I have mentioned before he is good at singing like Kei, I think they should do a duet cover together someday.
With Yutaki, the tako butler haha. He is so cute and adorable damn tall. I feel like a midget next to him. It's so hard to take pic with him too because i'm so short ;-;, either he has to bend down or sit down in order to take picture with me lol.
I will update DAY 2 & 3 soon when I have time as I'm currently busy with school and internship. In the mean time, enjoy watching this video:
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